Pit or Peace is my little saying when I have a decision to make. We have all asked “Is this God’s will or plan for my life?”

My disclaimer is that I am not a theologian nor do I have any formal bible training. This is my opinion based on my own experiences and reading what the Bible says about making decisions.

Someone told me that every decision is a spiritual decision. The older I get and the more responsibility I have in all areas, I can see that every decision I make affects my relationship with God good or bad.

God already knows the plan for my life. I need to be humble enough to ask him to always be leading me down the path he has for me and not the path I want to choose for myself.

When I have a decision to make I almost always have a gut feeling from the beginning. I would like to think my gut feeling is the Holy Spirit already working in me.

Before I make a decision I pray about the decision, read the bible, and seek counsel from people I respect with opinions I value.  During this process of figuring out what God is asking of me I go through a few verses that help me decide if my choice will lead me to pit or peace.

If PEACE then… If PIT then…
Open doors- I see God answer prayer and open doors when I am seeking Him and asking for wisdom– Jeremiah 29:11-13a; James 1:5 Feel anxious and unsettled – The Holy Spirit is giving me that “pit” feeling that something isn’t right- Philippians 4:6: John 14:17
Confidence- Asking God with confidence to make it obvious to me – 1 John 5:14; Proverbs 3:5-6; Hebrews 4:16; Psalm 32:8 Disorder in my thought process- When I try and work out the details in my head I just get more confused-  1 Corinthians 14:33; James 3:16
Peace –God is a God of peace and will not confuse me. If something is of God I will feel peace above all else Philippians 4:5b-7; Proverbs 3:5-6; Psalm 4:8 When family/friends whose opinion I trust and value are telling me that this may not be a wise decision – Proverbs 15:22


Sometimes God’s will and plan for our lives is not the most popular plan among our friends, or the most glamorous, and God’s will is usually not the easy decision. But, when we know that God has called us to something it leaves us with PEACE regardless of the circumstances around us. I have also realized that most of the things God has asked me to do in me life require stepping out on FAITH.

Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

Jeremiah 29:11-13a For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. 14 I will be found by you,” says the Lord.



I have a great mom. She is a super- servant. She is always willing to do things for other people. This is a beautiful trait. But, while growing up I took advantage of my super-servant mom and I became real lazy. I didn’t pin point my problem till a few years ago. I have wondered for  years why I can’t seem to put something where it belongs or why I don’t  have the urge to be orderly. It goes back to my elementary/middle school years where my sister and I would let our room get so messy my mom would clean it for us to perfection because she couldn’t take it anymore. I got used to this and just became very disorganized and nothing was ever in order for me-laziness. My disorderly spirit still rages within me. I have to tell myself everyday to go put something away, fold my clothes, and not leave piles in my closet. I want to so bad….just leave a mess everywhere.

I have been studying through the Beth Moore James study and she just touched on being orderly in my lesson this week. It totally resonated with me! There are a few verses in the Bible that talk about being self- controlled, orderly, and disciplined. Titus 1:8 says “ Rather, he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self- controlled, upright, holy and disciplined.”

Ouch! Sometimes, I don’t think of myself as living in sin or that I am doing something God may not be pleased with when it comes to folding my clothes right away, doing the dishes, putting toys away, but apparently God values a disciplined heart. I have worked really hard over the last year to take this serious and to discipline myself in my daily tasks and all the way down to keeping my van clean. 1 Corinthians 14:33a says “ For God is not a God of disorder but of peace”.

I have to admit that after living in a crazy messy room as a kid, I really enjoy my clean house now even though I have to talk myself into cleaning it everyday! Even if an organized closet is a very small thing- I know God is asking me to value self-control and discipline even in the small things. Is God asking you to clean your room too?


I am the first to admit that I am a pessimist and I have to fight hard to overcome a complaining spirit about a lot of things.  I find myself in a very interesting position in my life right now with many things changing in a few short months, a new baby at home and a lot of little ones depending on me, and sometimes I like to think of myself as one of the Israelites wandering in the desert yelling at Moses. This isn’t a good thing. I am not proud of admitting this, but it’s the truth and it’s where I’m at.  Lets go back to Israel’s days in the desert and I will show you what I am talking about:

Exodus 16:1-3 The whole Israelite community set out from Elim and came to the Desert of Sin, which is between Elim and Sinai, on the fifteenth day of the second month after they had come out of Egypt. In the desert the whole community grumbled against Moses and Aaron. The Israelites said to them, “If only we had died by the Lord’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have brought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death.”

You see, they had such “me” centered attitudes that they couldn’t even be thankful that they were rescued out of slavery and that God was divinely leading and protecting them in the desert. They finally complained to the point that I believe they began to fantasize about sitting around those pots of meat and stuffing their bellies in the midst of this terrible harsh reality they were actually living.

Sometimes I act like that. I am sitting around fantasizing about my former life and the “pots of meat” I once had. I remember the days before kids when I had more spare time or didn’t have spit up on my shirt by 8 am.  I remember the days when I could go to sleep and not get up once until I wanted to. There are times I miss Powell and living close to the zoo and the indoor playplace or dear friends. I miss being closer to certain stores and malls. I remember the days of being able to as my husband put in his last blog post “ride in someone else’s wake”.

Satan uses those things to attack me at my weakest moments and I have to remind myself that those are not my calling. We moved to Hilliard because we knew that lives need changed here. People need to meet Jesus.

I have on many days asked God why he took away my “pots of meat” and gave me Manna to work with here in Hilliard. I am a nobody here. Our church is brand new and no one knows we’re here yet.

So my confession is that I need to remember that what God has before me is going to be way better that the “pots of meat” I once knew. God didn’t bring me to Hilliard to be isolated, alone, and wandering. He brought me here because he is going to do something new in me and through Movement Church.

Isaiah 43:19- See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.